The End

Wow, that book was very interesting...but I didn't feel like I usually do when I finish a book: drained of energy because I was perched on the end of my seat reading every word, my heart beating. Usually I finish a book and am washed of emotions and feelings. Yes, this story was suspenseful, but I feel as though it ended where it began. D-503 was the same. Yes, more people died, but I felt like we went through so much in the book for no reason. True, it did teach a lot and make you feel a lot, think about a lot, but I still feel like it was a waste because the One State didn't change one iota.

I'm also still confused about I-330. It's strange. I feel like she was a predator, but also loved D-503. True, this could just be me being hopeful because I wanted that relationship to be real, but I feel like she was both, just like D-503 was two people: his hairy-self and his logical-self. Seeing two of him, it makes me feel like I-330 might have had two images: her hoplessly-in-love-self and her ruler-of-the-MEPHI-self. I feel like that at some times she was actually in love with D-503, but not at the beginning, instead after she got to know him. Especially when she spoke about O-90; I felt like she was worried that O-90 might be having D-503's baby; I felt jealousy from her. Yes, I agree, she was definitely using him as the Builder of the Integral, but I felt like at some times she was in love with D-503's hairy-self.

Thirdly, I'd like to say that I felt like D-503 was a puppet in this book. It was like he was a piece of rope in a tug-of-war, being pulled by the rebels and the Benefactor. He never truly got to think for himself. He was either being manipulated by the rebels or manipulated by Benefactor. Each side showed him happiness of some sort, but I felt like he struggled to find a happy medium. He was never really happy. Never. He was just a toy in the middle of a revolution. Used by both sides to control and learn about the other side. He never found his happiness, even at the end of the book; and I feel sorry for him.